every day I'm learning

[sciatrix]

....today, the learning experience is that coordinating the shipping of twenty-odd singing mice from New York to Texas is a mind-bogglingly complex endeavor, and I am just barely coming out on top of the bureaucracy. But! But! There will be mice I can use for this experiment, ideally by my committee meeting and at least so that I can do a kickass talk for Evolution this year. I'm applying for the SSE Grad Council this year, although the deadline is today--gotta make sure I set some time aside today to do that in amid the flurry of emails.

Also, I'm very carefully dipping my toes into The Body Keeps the Score and gritting my teeth the entire way--more because conceptualizing my life as traumatic in any way feels bad and wrong and self-indulgent and terrifying than because I think that the book itself is problematic. (I'm listening to the text-to-speak function on my phone, which is comforting and a little less scary than reading it for reasons I have no idea how to articulate.)

I'm low on Diamine Meadow right now (review) in my TWSBI stub pen, and I'm really sad about it. I think I need to commit and buy myself a proper bottle of it--this is just the tail end of the 2mL sample I got for my birthday last year.

Comments

[notasupervillain]

Now I'm imagining twenty mice in top hats with canes with crooked ends, singing and dancing together.

Please tell me this image is accurate.

[havocthecat]

Ooh, Diamine Meadow seems to be just the shade of light green I'm looking for!

Good luck on the mice.

[kore]

........singing mice?

conceptualizing my life as traumatic in any way feels bad and wrong and self-indulgent and terrifying than because I think that the book itself is problematic

Yeah, I hear you there. It takes me ages to read books like that.

[felinejumper]

MICE TRANSFERS. THE WORST. The worst. So much paperwork and obscure forms and institutional specificity and emailing vet staff to be like "please....?" and meanwhile time is passing and they're aging, damnit. UGH. Good luck, they'll get to you eventually and you can make lots of jokes about flying first class. Or driving, I suppose.

[kaberett]

TBKtS: I have opinions on bits of the book that, in fact, ~problematic~, but honestly they're more to do with BvdK's lack of self-awareness than anything else.

Audio books: maybe more of a There Is Another Person Here And You're Not Alone support-in-self-regulating than you'd get by Reading Words On A Page? hindbrains are a thing, and also stupid.

also, good luck to getting over here, where I am still periodically incandescently furious about my trauma sources but at least am not still clinging to "but if I don't admit they were that bad then, magically, they will have Not Been That Bad and in consequence I Can Fix All This because It's A Moral Failing On My Part so I Just Have To Be Better"...

[hellofriendsiminthedark]

I relate to the text-to-speak bit. It's a lot easier to detach to things being read in an automated voice than a human voice with inflections that indicate an understanding of the content's meaning.

[wellthisisnice]

Ok, this finally made me lookup ebook apps that do the text-to-speech thing, so thank you for that. Now i should uuh, copy some of the textbooks and papers i need to read into my phone...

(Unfortunately, my copy of The Body Keeps the Score is not among my ebooks, so i'm gonna have to read it myself if i wanna move on from chapter 4 someday.)