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Feb. 5th, 2010 06:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sciatrixI have realized something fairly big about myself. All these last two years I've been silently beating myself up about the whole "gained twenty pounds in college" thing, and how I now weigh twenty pounds more than my mother and sister. And getting comments from my mother about how she "wants me to be healthy," because my current weight can't be healthy on its own. (It's 140 pounds, I think. Come on.)
Except... I had freaking terrible eating habits in high school. I wouldn't get very hungry, I wouldn't cook any half-way decent meals, I never ate breakfast and half the time I didn't eat dinner either. And my lunch was a joke--I'd sit down with two to four chocolate chip Rice Krispie treats by the vending machines, methodically eat all of them while reading, and then flee to the library for the rest of my lunch period. And some days that was all I ate, that and chocolate milk, because I wasn't getting any social eating and I didn't have time to make a decent meal for myself for lunch and I was too tired/uninterested to make a decent dinner for myself, either. And that was about the time we stopped eating dinner all the time as a family, too. Don't get me wrong, I ate other things--my tendency is and has always been to pick one thing and eat large quantities of it, and I do like vegetables quite a lot--but it still wasn't terribly healthy.
Now, well, I don't eat all that well, but I do my best within the confines of the dining halls, and I'll be doing better in the fall. But now I have a social group to eat with, and I actually eat breakfast, and I always make sure to eat greens. I'm even actually exercising a bit more, since I walk to most of my classes. Overall, I think I'm actually doing pretty damn well.
Except... I had freaking terrible eating habits in high school. I wouldn't get very hungry, I wouldn't cook any half-way decent meals, I never ate breakfast and half the time I didn't eat dinner either. And my lunch was a joke--I'd sit down with two to four chocolate chip Rice Krispie treats by the vending machines, methodically eat all of them while reading, and then flee to the library for the rest of my lunch period. And some days that was all I ate, that and chocolate milk, because I wasn't getting any social eating and I didn't have time to make a decent meal for myself for lunch and I was too tired/uninterested to make a decent dinner for myself, either. And that was about the time we stopped eating dinner all the time as a family, too. Don't get me wrong, I ate other things--my tendency is and has always been to pick one thing and eat large quantities of it, and I do like vegetables quite a lot--but it still wasn't terribly healthy.
Now, well, I don't eat all that well, but I do my best within the confines of the dining halls, and I'll be doing better in the fall. But now I have a social group to eat with, and I actually eat breakfast, and I always make sure to eat greens. I'm even actually exercising a bit more, since I walk to most of my classes. Overall, I think I'm actually doing pretty damn well.
