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I got to the romantic orientation question and discovered that I am IMMENSELY CONFUSED as to what the hell mine is. This is possibly at least partially because I am really confused by what demiromantic actually is. Extrapolating from demisexual it would be you can only fall in love with people you're already friends with but then I'm confused as to how you could love somebody you didn't already know, but there's all those tropes about love at first site and shit, so I dunno maybe some people do, so that would make me demiromantic as well and demisexual, and oh god I don't even know this is why I was using queer as my orientation label because I have no idea how to quantify. And most people seem to get like, crushes on people they don't know, is THAT romantic attraction, I don't get crushes, does THAT mean I'm demiromantic then, AUGH. And I have no idea what if any gender whatever there is on that. We've been in six relationships, two current both with nonbinary people, four previous all male, but I didn't actually exist for half of those and even when it was my name it wasn't really the same as me now, and my brain is the most confusing place to live, and and and *flails incoherently*